Becoming the mom of a Preemie

I found out I was pregnant with my 2nd child in Nov 2011 when I was hospitalized for Liver/Kidney failure. It was a very scary situation for me not only because I was fighting for my life, but also the life of my unborn child. All the doctors and even some friends and family said it would probably be best to abort because of all the treatmenti was receiving, the baby would never be normal. But I decided to keep my baby.  As with my 1st daughter (for other reasons) I was a high risk patient. I was on bed ret most of my pregnancy due to having an incompetant cervix and having to have a cerclage. This pregnancy was worse than my 1st and taht one was pretty rough. My due date was not until June 14,2012 but on Aril 20 my water broke. I was 31 weeks and 6 days. I was scared to death thinking my daughter was going to be born that day, but the plan was made to admit me to the Antepartum unit and try and hold off as long as possible. So everything was going good and on Wed April 25 I went to a socialgroup to get out of my room, and came back and ate lunch. Well in the middle of eating, my cotractions started. They decided to watch me, but about 2 hrs later I started heavly bleeding. My cerclage was still in and it was tearing my cervix with the contractions.. They rushed me down to triage to take it out, but had a hard time because my contractions were back to back and I was in SEVERE pain. They finally got it out and I thought they were going to send me to L&D but they didnt, they sent meback to AntePartum. They had given me pain meds but it wasnt touching the pain, so I begged for my epidural, but they kept saying no because I had to be on the L&D floor. Finally after 5 hours of back to back contractions the moved me to L&D for my epidural but were still trying to keep my daughter in. On the morning of April 26 I spiked a fever from my water being broke for 6 days, but they still wanted to keep her in. At about 6pm the came to check me because they had not since the night before (I was mad about that) and told me I was complete and he could see my daughters head. I started crying because they told me I wouldnt deliver that day because they were trying to keep her in, so my mom had gone home to sleep and we live an hour from the hospital. I delivered by myself, all I had was the Dr, nurses, and neo team and the only person I wanted was my mom. I was mad that thy went that long without checking me and it resulted in me being alone. They also found out that I had a placental abruption. That is why they believe my water broke early. My daughter was born at 6:33pm at 32 weeks and 5 days. She was 3lbs 15 oz. I cried because she was so tiny and I didnt know if she was breating ok or if anything was wrong. Thank God that everything was perfect and she was breathing on her own, she was just tiny. She went to the NICU and I went to see her that night but only stayed 5 mins because I was so scared and just didnt want to see her hooked up to all the machines. I wasnt expecting it because they told me she was fine and didnt need much support. She stayed in the NICU for 2 weeks and was finally released the day before mothers day! Besides my very 1st mothers day, this was the best not only was it because she was home, but it was my 1st being a mother of 2. Allyson is completely healthy and is now over 5 lbs! She is growing fast! My 5 yr old Bayleigh is a PROUD big sister and helps me a lot! I feel complete now that we have Ally!!!!  Although her entrance was eventful, she was worth every minute!!!!!

Allyson at 3 days old!

My gorgeous Princess!

Allyson and her big sister Bayleigh